I have to make time for stillness.
by Sister Gail Borgmeyer, Provincial for the Pallottine Sisters
Advent is waiting for God; waiting in stillness. I have consistently believed that waiting is the same as being still, and Advent is not a “still” season. There are gifts to buy, parties to attend, cookies to bake, and cards to send out. Decorations are pulled out of closets and dragged out of basements. Trees are trimmed; wreaths are hung. And during this activity, we are given a countdown – 1st Sunday of Advent, 2nd Sunday of Advent, oh my gosh—the pink candle is lit and by then I am giving up. So much about waiting for God to come and being still!
The world doesn’t change because of how I want to have Advent. I have to change and renegotiate the meaning of Advent and stillness. Even if the days are full of preparing the house and baking goodies and mailing cards (by the way—not this year), then at some point—early in the morning or in the quiet of the evening—I have to make time for stillness.
Here is a four-step approach:
Step One: Empty all thoughts. Let them surface and let them go.
Step Two: Enter into the quiet space inside —searching for the inner temple where God resides.
Step Three: Envision a bright star shining through infinite darkness into your heart. Allow its glow to pulsate and warm you.
Step Four: In the light of this star, wait with all your hopes and fears; your hurts and frustrations; your confusion and anger. Let go and enter into the stillness.
God will not disappoint. God will come.