Let’s face it, we like to be in control; in control of the day to day scheduling of our lives, the minute by minute details, and most importantly the “where am I going and what do I want for my future” questions. And even though we claim to trust in God’s holy will, we often times trust ourselves more, believing that we are the ones that really know what is best for us. We are convinced that “this is the dream job, the only one that can possibly be for me”, or “I will only be happy if I end up with this person”, or even “I don’t deserve this diagnosis”. But by living this way, we aren’t really letting God be God.
Our faith, at times, seems conditional, and we are satisfied that our prayers have been met only when they have met our desires, not God’s. But the thing is, this almighty God, who created the galaxies with His own breath, knows much better than we how it all turns out. The great “I am” resides in the past, the present and in the future, for each of us, for all times. And not only that, but as our loving Father, He wants our deepest joy and greatest happiness, and knows precisely how to give it to us.
Is it possible to live like this, to trust like this? Can we abandon control and embrace the unknown, so that God’s divine will is our only compass? Can we set aside everything we think we need and want in our lives so that this enormous God, who is bigger than any problem we ever face, can go about His business, working painstakingly and lovingly for our best life?
Next time we are micromanaging the details, mapping out which prayers need to be answered… let’s not. How about just letting God be God?